Multilogical Thinking, Metamemetics, and Humanities

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(Copyright: Diego Fontanive, 2018)

Multilogical Thinking and the Hummanities

Humanities is defined as a “…the thoughts, imagination, creativity, achievements, performance, and impact of the individual. There is a concern for culture and all kinds of human behaviors that produces cultural artifacts… values, quality, and expression. Humanities includes “fields of scholarship that strive to reconstruct, describe, and interpret the activities and accomplishments of people by establishing and studying documents and other artifacts created by the people (Perrault & Aversa, Information resources in the humanities and the arts, 2020).” John Immroth highlights a theme that seems to create a stereotypical difference between science and humanities: “the science is our study of ourselves and the world around us physically and biologically… social sciences appear to be the study of humankind and fits relationships with other people, socially, economically, and politically (Perrault & Aversa, 2020).”

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Multilogical thinking implies that there are many ways to approach about our beliefs, ideas, epistemic acceptances, and theories to gain a more refined understanding by analyzing them for what’s valid and invalid, what is useful discarded from what is not helping. (This is also listed in the critical thinking glass art online.) Metamemetics is an extension of memetics. The word, ‘memes’, was a term coined by Richard Dawkins in 1979 to refer to units of cultural information replication. It’s similar to how biologists use replication to describe how genes evolve. it is also short for mimemes which gives the understanding that it is the act of copying/replication (Cedrola, 2020). Memetics is a study of the evolution of meanings that we utilize to think about the world as we interact with it and interact with people. What we use is a belief system, algorithmic thinking, and psychological pictures. (There could be other terms, such as psychological projection, which is about an extension or reflection of our thoughts and emotions in the world and our interactions, but the three ideas will be discussed later). First I will talk about the brain, cover some of the types of approaches to understanding information and problems we are confronted with, and conclude with arguments.

We weren’t born with distractions or with stupidity, which is refered to here as the behavior, not a cognitive association. According to a study in an Hungarian university, stupidity was ranked from least to most prevalent: violations of maintaining a balance between confidence and abilities; failures of attention; and lack of control (Matharu, 2015). This was one of the reasons, aside from meta-ignorance and irrationality among cognitive biases and fallacies, why it would be crucial to think about our thinking. Yet we also don’t have the tools in education or any institution of life (religion, recreation, lifestyle things, etc)..

It’s also not ignorance, itself, but can be related to meta-ignorance and the Dunning-Kruger effect. It’s also not irrationality, which is more related to risk-taking which can be confused with many beliefs (referring to magical or religious thinking). The key is that stupidity is unnatural and is a consequence of psychological confusion which comes from some memes and their interference in our physiological pictures and algorithmic thinking. (Briefly, psychological pictures are ideals about concepts we talk about, for example. Algorithmic thinking is our internal tag system with thoughts and memories associated with meanings, interpretations, beliefs, and conclusions.

In Understanding Stupidity, James F. Welles defines stupidity as: “… a mentality which is considered to be informed, deliberate and maladaptive… stupidity requires the activity to have maladaptive outcomes and is “…specifically done to prevent adaptation to new data or existing circumstances… one must know they are acting in their own worst interest, which can be true… and stupidity must be a choice (Welles, 2003).”

I am uncertain about this because there are psychological and neurological perspectives, such as those by Susan Blackmore and Sam Harris, and as well observations such as through Buddhism, that dismiss free will. [Its a Christian invention, and etymologically doesn’t come up in English until the 1300s]. “The brain does not care about freedoms: the brain cares about avoiding restrictions (like being caged or forced or violated) and / or escaping from eventual restrictions, because the brain’s purpose is surviving (Fontanive, 2020).”

“Stupidity lies between the cognitive processing of information about how things are and the cognitive processing of information about how we would like things to be. Since the information processing about how we would like things to be, which has to do with the future, is always more appealing that the computation in regard of how things actually are right here right now, then the very act of thinking about that generates automatically a certain magnitude of distraction. If that cognitive phenomenon does not get analyzed and inquired very seriously, then the distraction caused by wishing a better future, better things, better ourselves, decreases inevitably the quality of our thinking in regard of how things are now, including the way we think itself, and that is where our thinking becomes magical thinking, wishful thinking, stupid thinking or simply non thinking. Unless distraction is caused in the present by some noise etc; mnemonic knowledge is distraction. Our cognitive database is what I call mnemonic knowledge, which has the propensity to be a source of distractions (Fontanive, 2020).”

Memes are unique to humans. Pavlov’s experiment, for example, showed that dogs associate a bell because the dog knows that’s when food is served. It will not, however, answer the bell for something the dog does not need. We humans ‘need’ our coffee breaks and Pandora radio. Maybe some money for tickets to see that movie coming out in May. Time is a psychological concept. Tickets imply social structure, money implies economic structure. Music does stuff to our brain, affecting the dopamine, which affects other things. Like meanings.

The socialization of dogs involves playing, walking, and other basic things. However, people have so many variations, ideas, and attachments to socialization. On a certain level, socialization is good. We have a system of agreements, cultural constructs, etc. However, especially today, we’ve invented somewhat unnecessary expectations and associations with that.

The tricky thing about memes might partially reside in the paradox of needing to be social. Do the meanings we apply help our biological evolution, or rather the opposite?

In the topic of philosophy, Patricia Sparks reviewed the book titled Stupidity by Avital Ronell, who referred to writers like Woodsworth and Dostoyevsky and philosophers such as Heidegger, Hegel, and Nietzche. Stupidity, at most, seems to be Undecidability – a consequence of lacking in logic (Sparks, 2004).

Nietzche associated most people (mediocre) with being followers, associating followers of Christianity, for example, with being slaves. His ideas were complex, ambiguous, and algorithmic, but we follow ideas and create expectations for ourselves. Nietzche hated Christianity, but Jesus, idealistically, was a leader for him.

In a book review of “Irrationality: The Enemy Within” by Stuart Sutherland, R. A. Champagne exemplifies how stupidity is learned, partly possibly due to ignorance, but also to laziness (Champagne, R. A., 2012). Irrationality isn’t deliberate like laziness. We may be using our reasoning process in behaving stupidly, but the outcomes do not help us or anyone understand or progress.

Depending on what we approach information, we should try applying various thinking methods, like analytical, critical, dynamic, without any conclusions in our mind. We are limited, but we are more limited by concluding. Learn how when something is logically missing and find a method that could work.

For example, hermeneutics is not a good approach that relies heavily on subjectivity. It can tell us about the evolution of memes and memeplexes, however, Distinguish what is objective from subjective, if there is an objective. Some memes are just from the mind.

In an article from 2014, Sierra Kuhn said scientific thinking aims to enhance our understanding of what knowledge we have attained already. It entails intentional coordination theory and evidence, seeking knowledge, forming understanding, differentiating claims from evidence, and being able to make arguments and educate scientific thinkers. Scientific inquiry comes into play when all components of an argument are valid and argument is sound, meaning the premises (anything before the final statement) are true and consistent with reality.

(SierraKuhn, 2014, abridged, all in the mind courses)

As long as something is logically proposed, an interpretation can adapt and be critiqued to assist another perspective on a situation or problem may probe our understanding. More questions might come, opportunities to explore and discover.

Dynamic thinking can be defined as the ability to make optimal decisions in changing environments. The places we visit frequently and infrequently are ever changing. When we think in a dynamic way we can rapidly and effectively review options and select the best-fitting responses in the face of this.

Monoligcality implies one approach to thinking in which the speaker does not care about gleaning anything from the information they process except to confirm beliefs, maybe.

Monologicallity depends on dualistic ideas: the idea that everything is either right or wrong according to who we follow which is the same structure for other situations and memeplexes. The follower is a leader of his own ideals and a leader is also a follower of something else, but has followers. For more on the concept of following, please see the link to the “Glossary and Notes.”

You probably are familiar with Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs which has been expanded upon, to be consistent with modern reality. We have ideas about our needs or which should be prioritized when. Biological, safety, belonging, esteem, cognitive aesthetic self-actualization, and transcendence needs are listed, and are they all necessary? For example, we might feel the need to be safe or to belong. Those original warnings and group formations are natural and beneficial, but sometimes, and as history shows, problems have arisen by assuming needs, such as being special or give way to the ideas that lead to wars.

In Daniel Schmachtenberger’s interview with Rebel Wisdom, information-seeking can be disrupted when we come across it and don’t know how to navigate distortion of information in highly effective ways. We might not understand motives or intentions. “A consequence of neglecting need for attentiveness is peak – end effects are fundamentally summarized by the lack of acknowledgement of the details and the passages that lead to the ups, the downs and the ways they all ended.

“Because of this common forgetfulness the process of remembering, reporting and processing things of the past can get severely distorted. In effective communication of information (Fontanive, 2020),” Daniel Smatchenberger noted that the contents should be true, things are told truthfully, and things are consistent with reality which is changing, and we have to adapt to changes all the time.

Schmachtenberger said that distortion mostly occurs from a misalignment of agencies (Rebel Wisdom, 2019). Different levels of awareness are confused with different motivations, some natural while others are not. Simply applied, if you write a book to get revenge on someone, it’s not a natural motivation. If you build a website to ruin someone’s reputation, the creator’s information ecology utilizes memetic means maladaptively on purpose. In distorted information ecology, emotional biases might and can likely arise. Epistemology is thinking about something before talking about it, thinking about the quality and probing.

Let’s explore the structure of thinking a little bit. Thoughts are not exactly controllable in contrast to thinking, which is more of a process of management. Thoughts are not exactly productive and can create problems and situations which don’t actually exist, such as distractions and negligence of distractions. With meaning applied to thoughts, they become stagnant, where thinking and higher-order thinking moreso should be dynamic. “What is essential is to understand as it arises the interference of memes / values / meanings that occur within the ”space” between the activity of thinking and the production (or adoption) of thought processes.” Considering that thoughts are fundamentally cognitive data/information, then allowing thoughts to degenerate into a cognitive overload of data leads to overwhelming the procedure of thinking irrationally and that generates avoidable confusion, ergo a significant decrease of thinking qualities and precision in cognitive computational processes, including accurate decoding of emotions, memories, arguments, and logic in general.

Much of our thoughts are informed by our limbic system, which can represent an issue, in case it does not get monitored and understood. Subsequently, memetic thinking differed from actual thinking. Memes care about their own replication, genes care about the host. Genes also are about change over time, while memes are concerned with survival, which entails they must be distinctive to succeed.

Neurologically, “An intact amygdala seems to be essential for the successful performance instinctive behavior patterns such as food getting and instinctive defensive reactions that are necessary for the survival of the individual and the species. Ablation of the amygdala produces many behavioral deficits that center around the inability to integrate changes in reinforcement contingencies to new behavioral patterns (Richardson, 1973).”

The amygdala regulates functions in the nervous system inside the limbic system, impacts other functions and proposes that the amygdala not only serve olfactory functions (Richardson, 1973). The amygdala seems to be involved in attentive behavior proceeding sensory input through the skeletal system and the modulation of behavior patterns organized at the hypothalamic or cortical level but that the exact nature of this modulation and its location within the amygdala are in the hypothesis of amygdala functions. The amygdala tames or impairs responses to fear and reduces reactions to any stimulating changes.

From a Wikipedia article about stupidity, Otto Fernicgel suggests “…we don’t want to understand stupidity because we’ll feel guilt, anxiety or things that will endanger the neurological equilibrium a dangerous paradox: feelings are a learned behavior and might be in our psychological pictures since we use them in response to something based on previous, similar experiences. Emotions are driven by events, but the brain can’t tell natural versus unnatural reasons for them.

We also need time to process information before trying to understand and apply it to interactions in order to compile and deliver an effective response, with as much accuracy and consistency as can be managed.

This is complex, but an attempt to explore how psychological pictures look with external and internal influences affect our thoughts, actions, and reactions. The quadrant arrows would represent the memetic elements, the triple arrows across from that would represent memetic functions. The two arrows at the top are external influences in current time, the block on the left are environmental influences from the past, the block on the left represents our behavior influencing the environment. Depending on the varying variables, dormant memes become active along with already active memes, shifting and adapting to influence our response.

Elements refer to symbols, norms, rules, rituals, etc. The value or rank is prioritization, whether that is quantified or qualified, being sure that there is fidelity and replication, elements of memetic evolution as well as genetic, according to Richard Dawkins. This must be separate from other memeplexes, and naturally would add to success if different groups do not have similar memes to this group. Therefore, the culture is distinguished and successful.

If a variable in the equation changes, it may appear, memes allow freedom, so to speak, to think independently of influence. In the story of Buddha for example, Gautama doesn’t exactly fight the devil. But is his management a rebellion in disguise? I’m not sure, but the story is nice enough to not question because then it becomes less beautiful and symbolic. I think that is another problem with mixing memetics and humanities. Daniel Demmit discusses this in his lectures, and that it’s as if memetic destroys the emotional expression in humanities. He goes as far to say it destroys the god of the humanities, which seems to be an analogy.

Algorithmic thinking happens throughout psychological pictures, ideas about things based on values, variables such as prioritization and elements of culture, whether religion, peers, efc. Chemical and biological aspects via clinical psychology might be considered in studying the algorithmic thinking we tend to have because we are conditioned. In education, we should differentiate memetic thinking from thinking as well objectively good memes from infectious memes.

Algorithmic thinking is not only based on memories (which represent the structure of what we know), it is also based on and influenced by: animation of past and current information processing, personal systems of preferences regarding emotions, morals, ideas, wants, things to avoid, likes and dislikes. It’s also how our selective reasoning works, depending on attentiveness, conditioning, management of distractions, cognitive dissonance, notional knowledge and meta ignorance. The way we are biologically wired and reactions to it is important. We produce psychological and actual (physical) behaviors that affect emotions caused by meaningful outcomes, memetic influence. Received feelings are affected because we don’t have accurate information about them, we don’t have enough information on objects, subjects, or topics associated with feelings. Our algorithmic thinking is conditioned by the memeplexes we are living in such as family, friends, society, college, eventual identity groups, etc. the memories and influences derived from the memeplexes that have conditioned us in the past (conditioning also based on experiences).

The structure of our thinking encompasses how contents are put together to get a particular result as exemplified in this equation. The structure of a memeplex, a group of people with shared meanings, “… all seem to follow the same dynamics… A group of friends is kept together by some values and meanings, and in the maladaptive sense, often seems to derange into something else through time (Welles, 2003).

Operant conditioning and imprinting are also important to know in understanding the following of modes of culture and meanings. Understanding the difference between opperant conditioning and classical conditioning is important because animals associate useful meanings with things like how a dog answers a bell for food. However, people might associate something they do not need with a stimuli that is created to appeal to our response. This is more to inquire exploring the consequences from following without questioning. We follow ideas that we have, and sometimes we aren’t aware that we do.

Trying to use deductive reasoning will help us clearly lay out what we need to know to make or understand a sound or unsound argument. Sound arguments have premises that are all valid. Let’s paint a scenario. Let’s say Amy was found on the crime scene. Sam was said to be murdered on that scene. (This is what the detective knows). Amy was seen holding a knife that killed Sam. Amy was standing by Sam’s body. The detectives come and acknowledge the evidence and circumstance. Because of obvious and overwhelming evidence, one of the detectives concludes Amy killed Sam. The detective who assumes this is being inductive. The other detective is deductive if Anyone suspicious (around) should be questioned. More information could jeopardize the deductive reasoning processes.

When searching for invalidity, good to agree with just some points and disagree with other points some authors propose, that’s the good way to reach a decent sense-making, which is, essentially, making sense of meanings, or memes. To conclude with an activity, please consider one of these, and they can be shared and discussed in the second document if you wish to: https://docs.google.com/document/d/1WDqmmS8VZOZPG1-0nV9QS91h6Td6l3U_JD0-wl1mNks/editbe 




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Chapter 4 (POV: Michelle)

“I gotta go,” I said to Kristina before hanging up my the phone, missing a car as I met Ayira and Marcus on the side of a bed of rocks, black against black. Kristina wanted me to stay on the line to talk to her, which I found rather clingy. 


“Yeah, let’s do this!” Marcus said, pulling me in a carefree arm lock onto the flat rock he was on, nearly slicing my leg on a dangling shade of glass. Ayira drank from a bottle and gave us each one. 


We had this idea as Shahed was stalking us, a blue car moving slowly down and around the corne. We cut him off by 

Kristina acted like I wasn’t occupied. Sometimes she was in her own world and sucked people in out theirs without really thinking through, getting out of her head. He poked at Ayira, wuicislly. “You sure you’re okay?”


“Yeah, I’m fine.”


He joked, “What? You’re all tense or something, like you got a crush on each other’s.”


God. He didn’t know about our little test-trial relationship, not that Ayira or I knew much. My brother, Eric, never had a girlfriend. Ayira’s brother, Shahed, had a fiance, not quite by choice, but we weren’t discussing that. Hands off. 


“So, you guys free Friday?” Marcus asked. We didn’t give a straight answer. “Maybe I’ll ask when we get to the rock.”


“I have Quran class,” Ayira said.


“I had track.” 


“You’re just doing that for Kristina.” He said.


“Shut up. We made a compromise.”


Ayira has no comment. 


“You just feel bad for trevor because you knew he was innocent from the beginning of the accusation.” 


I blushed. 


“He’s been avoiding me, actually,” I said. “Or tries to.” 


Marcus changed the subject. “We should sneak into the pool in the basement sometime.”


“What, you got a key?” Ayira asked. 


“I can make one,” He replied, sure of himself. “It’s easy.” He shook on the rocks, made me off balance. My ankles were already hurting ten minutes into the hike across. Marcus has always been into engineering and technology, but there was a risk-taking side which made me think of Trevor. 


Ayira knew I was thinking about him. 


“He ignores me, too.” A car sped by, trailing along the stone path. We looked in case it was Shahed, but not yet.  


We were distracted by the flight of vicious seagulls gathering at litter on the edge of the rocks by the shore. The rocks tilted upward , ending with a flat landing of a rock. 


“Are you holding me or am I holding you?” Ayira said, laughing, releasing Marcus’ other arm. She was on a more smooth set of stones, longer, my path was a mixture of abnormally-shaped rocks and litter.


“Kris would be nuts,” I said.


“Yeah, but she ain’t here,” Marcus said almost too quickly. He didn’t care for her too much. 


I wondered if he was lonely, didn’t have friends that were guys. He had his computer, the chat rooms, but that was it. And it wasn’t exactly an efficient way to make real friends. But I didn’t argue.


He gripped me with one arm, gripped Ayira with other. It made us faster with balance. He maneuvered around the sharper rocks and nooks full of bottle shards and crabs. 


“You’re sweaty,” 


“Ammo!” He had to be kidding. I slipped out of his arms, near the edge of the cliff, he grabbed tighter, pulls me against his clothes, stinky and warm. 


We jerked left and right to the rock. 


“Would you be going to the next dance?” I hadn’t heard his question, and I wanted the time to ask irrelevant questions. We stopped to drink water, and I thought he may have forgotten or lost interest. I kind of hope. 


“I mean we can double date. This is awkward, but I don’t date


We got rock, Shahed stopped Marcus, running, almost pushing him backwards. 


“Geez, what the hell, dude.” He took out a small lipstick thing and Ayira immediately hit his arm, releasing. The small thing. 


“Ayira, you’re always hanging around them.”


“If you want us to leave, just leave!”


“So what were you going to do?” He said to Ayira. “Walk in the rocks then dive into that water or walk back on the highway?” You’ve all lost your mind!” He grabbed the spray again. chased Marcus, but Marcus dove off the edge before he got caught. Shoot, now I was going to be alone. 


A car lock beeped to unlock. Shahed grabbed Ayira by the arm, not looking at me. Maybe he suspected something. 


They muttered harshly in their language, sharp, dragged her through the path, reluctantly forced up the hulk and disappearing behind the brush. Tires rolled over gravel. I smelled the exhaust. 


I looked over for Marcus,but I didn’t see him. I shouted for him. It was getting darker, and I decided to call mom. She didn’t know about the highway, so I had to meet her at the beach. Walking up the path, brushe meeting me every step, I wrestled with it. Stepping on pricier, I thought I heard a deer or something. Maybe it was. 


“Michelle, what are you doing here?” Another arm hand grabbed my arm, pulling me backwards into the bushes. “Yikes, that branch is going to eat you,” and he pushed me into the tree. 


Another voice made my blood boil then.


“See, that’s what happens when people mind their own business.”


Chapters 3 (PoV: Trevor)

The sky was thick like molasses on the fifth day of school, August 24th. It was the day Mount Vesuvius let loose its steam and decided to end the lives of the hedonist islanders on the 24th day of August on the Gregorian calendars. I was born on a tragic day in our world history, and apparently, I am the V.I.P. of the month, along with other unlucky August birthdays being celebrated in the stiffening heat of the classroom. I guess no one can escape knowledge about bizarre events that share the date that they were born on.


“Hey.” I heard.


I couldn’t look away from Eric, passing by me a few inches from my face. I nodded some acknowledgement but he lingered over me.


“I’m sorry about yesterday,” he continued.


Why did he bring that up? I was trying to forget.


“No big deal.” I mumbled. 


“I mean, it seemed like it was.” Eric hesitated. 


“I don’t know what Michelle said to you, but it’s honestly none…” I was going to continue but was interrupted by laughing and yelling in the hallway.


“None of your business!” Right outside the classroom, Mitch was imitating me and laughing with Connor’s other friends. “None of your fucking business!”


Eric shrugged and avoided everything by going to the back of the room, to the left. Slinking into the seat by the back window, he wasn’t free from Mitch’s accusation.


“You hide over there every morning, so you’re not going to be invisible.”


“Uh… yeah… so what?” Eric responded, tense.


Eric should play deaf like I did. Why give those guys any attention? Ayira would have played deaf (since she kind of was), which was something I picked up on earlier during our relationship.


Connor sat in front of me next to Madison who my sister, Kristina, hinted at having a crush on me. It felt awkward, but she waited to tell me after Ayira and I split. Madison tapped her pen on her desk in a fixation about something. She seemed impatient and about to jump out of her seat any minute.


The teacher, who was nicknamed Mr, Sauce, was turned away from the class, the chalk in his hand doing all the talking. It darted across the board in shapes and characters of such neat handwriting. He had a stiff wrist too, with a small vein twitching underneath the skin. It strangely kept me away from looking at the clock as I rested my head in my elbow, waiting for him to begin the class, which I’ll admit was somewhat interesting enough to look awake for. 


After the last few students lazily filed through the door, negligent to shut it, chairs scraped the tiles and not a desk was left empty. The teacher called on Madison to collect the homework from everyone without even looking our way.


My homework had been stolen about thirty times since the beginning of last year. I looked over at Mitch, whose back was turned to me, looking at his phone. He might have been texting Connor. They plagiarized notes from the web, but when convenient, I wouldn’t be surprised if it was Mitch. Mitch was quick. The fact that it was neatly folded up on my desk made it obvious that someone touched it. How did I miss that? My homework returned anonymously the day after it was due with a little stamp of a wide smiley face laughing at me.


As Madison passed through the rows and columns of desks, expression brightening as she reached the final few desks toward the door. I adjusted my sitting position and checked to see that the whiteout I used wasn’t too obvious because I couldn’t peel the stickers off quickly enough. Of course, her shadow passed over and before she turned, she slightly flushed. Maybe someone ruined her homework too.also.


Mr. Sauce was slouched over his desk, looking into the bumpy pages of an ancient textbook, not ready to receive the requested pile of papers. Madison’s long hair looked like pine needles in autumn with freckles that fell like the faint, dead leaves on the hill outside seen through the perfect slant revealing the scene behind the window, glowing as she melted into her seat with a quiet huff after stacking the pile of crackly papers on the teachers desk. From behind her, Anneke leaned over to whisper. Her cousin was Hannah, the other friend of Michelle’s and Kristina. Madison shrugged at whatever Anneke said and straightened her shoulders to face the teacher who finally looked our way, rapping the table with a ruler.


“Who can tell me what happened on this day in history?” he asks. “Does anyone have a good guess?”


He called on students for answers who didn’t raise their hands. Mine were shoved under my seat. I had a reputation of possessing an air of avoidance. Hands rocketed into the air from around the room, begging to be called on. The teacher’s eyes were like magnetic charges that repelled from each raised hand.


“The first bag of potato chips came out in 1853,” someone called out. Correct, but that was not what Mr. Sauce was looking for.


“The Western Roman Empire falls in 410.” Great job studying, but we are done with Byzantium, thank the gods we got the followers of Christ involved with the collapse of Rome.


“Jane Eyre’ was published in 1857?” Save that for English 101. Mr. Sauce, unlike most history teachers, was only half amused.


“Pope Innocent III declared the Magna Carta invalid,” Eric says. He may have just saved the tension. How does a document harm people?


Eric Vincent Harold Hoffman Jr. was right. I guess the car accident hadn’t totally fried his brain cells.


Connor flipped out. “Why does it matter?”


“Well, the premises of its contents were invalid.” He slumped in his chair, arms hanging over his desk, not bothering to make eye contact with Connor. As tired as he was, Eric went out of his way to correct him.


“You still owe me!” Connor yelled at Eric across the room.


“For what?” Eric replied, confused.


“You know. Don’t play dumb.”


Neither of them wanted an audience and they walked the opposite direction from everyone down the hall to the busses. Connor held his stare and gave me the evil eye when he noticed me peering over my book at the two of them standing by the door, three minutes after everyone but us left.


I’d know soon enough because they sat in front of me on the bus. Everyone seems to not want to make room for the last few people being picked up. Eric and I are among the last to sit. Clearly, I am not homeless. I didn’t  know if Connor, who literally stepped in front of the bus like he owned the street, was or not.


Connor got on, trudged robustly down the aisle, sitting in the seat in front of me, by Eric. Eric was over a book as usually, and stopped me, breathing hard. How he moved when he got on the bus grabbed everyone’s attention.


“Surprised I came to see you?” he asks Eric.


“A little space would be nice.” Eric said.


“Well, push in.”


I got a full view of the anchor tattoo on the back of his neck. Eric moves over, nearly wedged into the window, making a ruckus.


“You know what’s happening in History next week?” Connor asked.


“What about it?” Eric responded, half-oblivious.


“Like what’s happening Monday, the seventh of September?”


“Richard the Lionheart defeated Saladin. Why?”


He gives him a very strange look and asks for the year.


“Eleven-ninety-one. Why?”


“How do you know the dates?”


“It’s on the calendar.”


“What calendar?”


“The one on the desk in front of the class.” Eric said matter-of-factly .


Eric fidget’s in his pocket and pulled out a stick of gum, offering it. At least he hated being asked logical questions before homeroom.


“What is that?” Connor asks, disgusted.


“Uh, strawberry gum.” It came out like a question. 


“How many cavities can you get from chewing that stuff?”


“I don’t know, but I can afford a toothbrush.”


“What happens the following Monday?” He takes out a notepad and pen. Disturbed possibly by something I said, he scribbles angrily, nearly tearing through the paper.


“Napoleon tried to take over Moscow in 1812 – which would fail. Francis Scott Key wrote the ‘Star-Spangled Banner’ in 18 – not to be confused with the other Francis Scott Key…”


“I don’t give a…” harshly flipping pages,or at least it sounded that way. “Okay. Hold on. Anything about India?”


“We haven’t gotten that far.you know, if you didn’t take everything you read literally, you would be surprised at the very unironic reality of things.”


“Everything’s ironic. That’s why they invent entertainment.”


“Who?” When Connor doesn’t answer, Eric adds, You… took a lot of notes.”


“You think I cheat, don’t you? I don’t cheat, Hoffman.” He squints at him. I think he chews tobacco with teeth kind of green.


“Being a veteran, I don’t think Mr. Tazina is  going to take any of us seriously. Maybe it doesn’t matter.” Eric stated.


“Well you’re the brains here. You matter. And he’s Japanese.” Connor said.


“He’s korean.” Eric nudged him. “Try telling him he’s Japanese, he’d cut your throat.”


“Oh, really? North or South?”


“You’re serious? You’re actually asking that?” Eric asked in disbelief.


Connor took out a notebook, resisting change in subject. 


“We used to take notes in catechism. You’re better at it.”


“Good at what? Everybody took notes from the board because you aren’t supposed to get things wrong. We had to recite the beatitudes in Latin.” Eric rambled, which made Connor bored until Eric mentioned the cryptic side of the church. “You wanted me to take notes and visit the stations of the cross without you, while you were playing booking at the pier or whatever. The assistants were pissed.”


“They were probably too busy minding their own business in the back where shitty stuff happens.” I tried not to laugh or they would instantly turn around.


Eric scowled.


“Why did you bring that up?”


“I didn’t. But I see the wheels turning, and you know what goes on back there. But you see the consequences of minding your own business? People get hurt. And the people who hurt get karma. Why do you think the church changed its name and people were fired?.”


“But why’d you bring this up?” Eric shouldered him again. “Stop writing. You’re just listening to what you want to hear and copying because what I say apparently sounds like gospel.”


Connor nudged him back. His last comment before I had to leave was something about the devil’s greatest lie was convincing everyone he didn’t exist.


When the bus pulled up in front of my house, I strolled right into a conversation in the living room. In our living room. Mom had left an hour ago. Kristina crouched by the phone. We must be the only neighborhood in this city that uses a landline.


“Who were you talking to?” I wanted to ask if someone died. It was so quiet.


“Michelle.” Kristina rolled her eyes so she wouldn’t look at me. Right, she was friends with that girl.


She sighed and told Michelle she had to go, hanging up diligently.


“I actually got in trouble too. Some girl caused a fight in the drama corridor.” She clarified when I didn’t get it, “the bathroom.”


“Give her something else she doesn’t need to know,” I said under my breath, shuffling around Kristins into the kitchen.


Attempts At Thinking About Thoughts in Relation to Emotions



Patterns, not contents, are relevant and should avoid distractions, not excuses to dismiss or be lazy, intellectually.


“Note: the human brain is wired to detect more patterns than contents, which is why so often we first identify patterns such as 1111 for instance or something that resembles a face on a cloud (pareidolia).. Then we interpret and form contents / meanings / conclusions / assumptions which do not necessarily match reality (Fontanive, 2020).”


It’s probably irrational for me to think there is a way to reason with emotions as they arise when people don’t have concentration and time to read longer pieces. Reading takes work because of the meaning in language and context.


“Note: emotions are not the issue: the issue is to be found in the relationship we have with emotions and the way we interface limbic information (Fontanive, 2020).”


Also, in thinking I’d be able to find some approach isn’t going to happen, but I assume saying that because we’re taught that it’s good to be published before we even share exploration without fear of failure and learning. 


“We need dopamine, but when dopamine becomes an addiction then the situation becomes problematic (Fontanive, 2020).” Sometimes the process of this neurotransmitter doesn’t get to the brain to be decoded, then response takes longer than the reaction. When it’s not reaching the brain, that sensation appears without any thought process. Do we create one, then? This unfamiliar sense is uncomfortable, and we also lack data to decode its association.




People don’t like to talk about things that aren’t good. They want to feel good. 


Talking About History


This had sunk into school, and made this tension worse because we never were taught how to talk about the past without moderating and identifying with it in such a way that we forget we are not exactly the replica of violence. Yet the narrative of contradictions (the Bible being against slavery) caused the inevitable problems, even when descendants of slaves celebrate Christianity. 


“Note: generically speaking most people are ‘’happiness / positivity / safety’’ driven. That is actually an impediment to proper reasoning (Fontanive, 2020).”


There is the justification if the lost tribes of Israel


The means for economic use of slaves (farming in the south and industrial in the north)


Keith Stokes, a Jewish descendent of slaves (and a slave who was raised by quakers) mentioned we need a personalized approach to history, though not sure what that means and what it does, maybe separate modern psycho-social meaning from historical facts that get a number away in classroom narratives. 


Slaves in America were slaves for life, unlike slaves in other areas.


We do tend to use words which lighten things, but I think that comes from ignorance, not the invented concept of ‘white privileged’. Apparently Isaac Amitov made this observation, and to be honest, he was probably first referring to white people. 


There’s a lot of complexity: refugees didn’t own slaves, many Americans were too poor to own slaves, etc. Native Americans were shut out and into death marches of sorts, and somehow, something about modern education from native Americans, more so than Africans, seems less animated. But they are a lesser minority (population).




Separating self from the past doesn’t mean forgetting or dismissing it. The surprise that a better approach is needed in order to progress is detrimental to collective progress. We aren’t taught to manage emotions, but conveying what we think we want or what we fear is overshadowing room for observational, Multilogical stance. Fields related to social science could be reform of some sort because politics (and religion) tend to be in the institution and other areas of cultural conditioning. Speaking of politics, we need Policymaking and can have help with AI technology to do so with training. For example, they are not structured to follow bias or something inductive (and not wired at all). Talking about AI, apparently, is underrated. 




Psychological confusion of unhealthy thinking over time is probably a crucial result of constant recycling of memes, and this may be close to an objective description of evil. The point where we deliberately do bad for sake of bad depends on massive scale denial, justification, which leads to hypocrisy, etc. Responsibility of moral judgement is given to someone else, in theory by Stanley Milgram. This experiment was biased because his students were male and the number of people could not represent a larger population. His theory for evil and the way that authority, control reverential fear work may need refinement and exploration as well. The idea that “people become evil,” will not be accepted by some eastern cultures and not objectively existing in nature. It could also need memetic studies and logical confusion of healthy and unhealthy thinking. 




It’s hard to observe falling gullibly into a group that procetylyzes because you might see positive sides or cling to ideas of ultimate ends and peaks, never really paying attention to other details. 


When can we identify healthy contributions in groups while distinguishing thinking from interference with others’ thinking? 


What does it mean not to follow? We don’t have influences pressuring us, though when left alone, we have our mind, and are forced to manage that without knowing how to properly. 


What makes it better not to follow? Healthy versus unhealthy elements of following ideas, people, movements, versus education which is about facts, but not about operant conditioning, which another thoroughly engrained sociological phenomenon (?). 


“Note: It’s good to follow only when following is technical and sticks to technical acquisition of skills and knowledge such as following a tutorial about gardening for example, but when is primarily psychological instead of technical then any act of following is directly informed by the limbic system, ergo it is emotional, and that’s also what breeds the matter of believing, and believing is never reality, neither can productively co exist with good reasoning.They are antithetical actually (Fontanive, 2020)!”


Reverential fear depends on narrating, stories, meaning applied to archetypes which simplify people’s thinking and “…deeply ingrained in the fact we all have been raised in the terms of operant conditioning (punishment and reward (Fontanive, 2020).”


We join to be special (which gets unmanaged and distrustful, contradictory), to belong, (want more members, seeking approval, confirmation bias, increased lack of attentiveness, reliance on invisible, no structure, only rule if there are no rules. When we feel we don’t have a purpose (which increases feelings of uselessness, impatience, arrogance / paranoia), have confidence and identity. “That is the result of the lack of understanding (and dealing) with the primary reality in which we all want to feel safe in the first very place (Fontanive, 2020)!”


“When healthy contribution and value is provided by / in groups, then nevertheless each individual’s thinking can participate in the synergy with the other members of the group via relating itself with the thinking performed by the other members but must avoid the propensity to use it as a cognitive interference, otherwise, if that happens, a process of psychological entropy gets likely engaged, or even groupthinking can easily take place (which is very common).  One has to be trained to think without interference, even interferennce of what could be detected as ”offensive” or taken personally (Fontanive, 2020).!”




Is desire / craving an emotion or a feeling, and is it an illusion we can’t do something without past rituals? We’re somehow lost, because we lost the familiar? The lack of data (feeling) versus emotion (makes it to brain to be decoded) versus memory and thought attached to interpretation of emotion in given experience with memory associated, for instance, with “…pareidolia is the brain’s attitude to detect patterns that are familiar to us even when what we think those patterns represent (shapes etc) is not real (Fontanive, 2020).”


Desire might often be felt if we are vague and unsure about the goal and how to get there, which exemplifies the danger of memetic evolution takes over biological survival. Feelings cannot have meaning if it doesn’t reach the outer brain, so how can we make assumptions about feeling? Why do we? Maybe associate it with danger, feeling staying in the limbic system?


“Note: I would say: if feelings (which are merely lack of data about something) are mainly informed by the neo/pre-frontal cortex, ergo logic, then we increase the chances of coollecting further data, if instead they are mainly or even entirely informed by the limbic system and / or the amygdala, then they easily generate misconceptions, inward conflcts and even chaos / confusion. These days we can certainly detect a dramatic increase of polarization for instance and that’s caused by feeling fed limbically, especially online (Fontanive, 2020)!”


If it’s an emotion, attached memories and interpretation that were successful from various social groups and stay depending on if we stay in the group. Some people who have criticism in a group example won’t be in a group or may want to. If they think differently but feel history is important, which it is, but when if it’s reasonable should we distinguish history from present reality, this will upset other member. In educating and sharing to those who are ignorant (because, unfortunately, Americans tend to be), the individual descendent of victim of history doesn’t know how to express anger without turning the people they educate away. This is complex because not everybody intends to scare people when educate, but they have pressures from how relate to history and identifying with symbolism + dealing with ignorance + propaganda (from various directions, including school system narrative, but all political). Result of confirmation bias might be curiosity and simultaneous fear of losing the familiar results in memetic desire for control / imperialism, per se. 


“I agree: and as always happens: bad / biased / polarized systems of agreeableness always decrease the individual thinking skills of those who belong to those systems (Fontanive, 2020).”


As further noted: “There is a difference between rebellion and rebelliousness since the first is more likely to be based on valid premises (injustice and such) while the second one is more something that has to do with memetic thinking and emotionally informed propensities to cling to certain reactions, like ‘’drama making’’ for instance (Fontanive, 2020).”


Dynamic thinking: “Why did I put emphasis here? Where did this come from? How did I react then, how can and should i react now, and can I react differently?” This entails identifying, applying, though labels, ideals, expectations, distractions, etc. Example: applying mechanism of how one loses religion to losing diet or an obsession / addiction in attempt to gain something realistically needed like security. Separating ideas of how to get this should be distinguished from how to rationally get that.


As a summary: In not identifying memes that are not necessarily and distinguishing from interference, is a problem. We might not notice it as we assume we are deeply thinking about problem. Things are made vague partly because of the system are familiar with, and when we don’t see other perspectives and see injustice, we see the owing of familiar.


“Our system of familiarity (what’s familiar to us), whatever that is to each one of us, is also a memetic agent that always works as a cognitive interference especially when it comes to deal with something that is unfamiliar to us (also because the brain wants to decode whether that could be a possible danger or not.. then the mind interprets but does that insufficiently in most cases) Fontanive, 2020).”

Suedfeld, P. & Brcic , J. (2011). Resolution of Psychosocial Crisis Associated With allying in Space. Acta Astronautica, 69(1-2), 24-29. doi: 10.1016/j.actaas.2011.02.011


This was an interesting article, and thought might be useful to think about how our future might be and what it might imply for future generations.


After reading this, can you find some research that gives other perspectives regarding astronaut diaries?


Can you hypothetically apply self-evaluation if considered the reality of emerging with something full of uncertainties?


Are there fallacies in how the applications of using the psychological theory were made?


We’re there assumptions that why what was written in the diaries were thoroughly detailed accounts? Can social expectations influence self-deception, considering humorous pressures and problems might effect experience, then effect writing about it? What can that be decoded when reading primary sources?





  • Psychosocial development stages (Table 1)

    • Trust versus mistrust

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Withdrawal

        • suspicion

        • pessimism

        • low self-with

        • conformity

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Reasonable sense of trust in other

        • Self-trust

        • Optimism

    • Autonomy versus shame and doubt

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Sense of being essentially bad

        • Moralism

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Sense of self-control and adequacy

    • Initiative versus guilt

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Sense of inadequacy

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Exploration

        • Activity

    • Industry versus inferiority

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Jealousy

        • Inferiority

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Purpose and direction

        • Able to initiate activities

        • Sense of mastery

        • Competitiveness

        • Productivity

        • Achievement

    • Identity versus role confusion

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Confusion about own real identity

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Integrated image of oneself as a unique person

    • Intimacy versus isolation

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Failure to secure close, cooperative relationships

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Capacity for close relationships

        • Commitment to other people

    • Generativity versus self-absorption

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Self-indulgence

        • Interpersonal impoverishment

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Concern for establishing and guiding future generations

        • Altruism

        • Creativity

    • Integrity versus despair distrust

      • Unfavorable outcomes

        • Regret

        • Sense of not fulfilling one’s life desires

        • Misanthropy and contemp for others

      • Favorable outcomes

        • Sense of acceptance

        • Fulfillment

        • Satisfaction with ones life and with close others

        • Ability to face death with dignity


There are more favorable than unfavorable outcomes of critical conflict situations listed by Erickson.  This article discusses changes due to variables of and flight phases. Across the phases, there is an increased pattern slow, steady evolution of integrity.


Archival materials used are not in the context of personality Eva,Ustinov and are from international agencies. In one sample regarding a group of 97 people, 54 were from the US,  30 from Russia, and 13 from other countries. 79 were male, while 18 were female. 59 people spent a long duration in space, while 47 were once shorter duration (Table 2, 2011). Examples of differences amongst agencies were displayed in table 1. Russia was ranked higher in industry, autonomy, and initiative than other countries, lowest in identity and integrity. Other countries were ranked higher in identity outcome than the U. S. and Russia, lowest in autonomy. The u.s. and other countries are close in rank for industry and initiative; about half to one third of Russia’s ranking for those categories.


“High scores on intimacy are not surprising, in the light of previous findings regarding long-duration astronauts’ high affiliation motivation [6] and mentions of the uni- versalism value [7]. The astronauts were building and maintaining new relationships in the months spent together and in some cases referred to their crew as family.


The low scores on identity could be the result of the crew adopting the same international identity. The exam- ple in Table 3 for identity reflects that possibility. The long-duration crews could shed their national identity and adopt a more international one for the benefit of the group (Suedfeld & Bruin, p. 28, 2011).”


Combined Reflections and Conversation Regarding the Structure of Taboos

A list of things many people do not want to talk about:

  1. Irrationality
    • Justified irrationality 
    • Associating ourselves with historical events because a trait of ours is similar or we have touched an artifact belonging to someone who is harmful?
    • We want to be good and accepted and fear being hurt -> what sells is what is feared
    • Categorizing it as social psychology as opposed to cognitive is more precise, as example 
    • Beyond POP, kind of attitude in research including careful attention to predictions, proportion, numbers, etc, which also other people ignore / not something shared on social media but also not understood well if shared or how to approach, whether we should discuss, how to discuss, etc.such as if doing research, find other valid persoectives. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7276964/ 
  2. Stupidity
    • It’s a behavior as the result of confused and unhealthy thinking, actions, and behaviors based on the magnitude of distractions
    • It also implies, seemingly, not to ‘be astonished,’ in Greek civilization.
    • Although I have photos in various places, a recent one kind of is concerning as well plenty of others, some blend different motives depending on persona the idea of what they can get out of what they tend to do, like looting might be as the people who are violent are breaking into stores (burning belongings), 

“It’s important to divide between formal taboo and informal taboos.
Such as formal fallacies and informal ones.

Informal taboos have to do with metaignorance (such as not knowing taboos are present and interfering with the individual thinking, the collective average mindset and the common sense (epistemic acceptances of a certain memeplex / culture / tribe/ collective / society and so on).
We can call this ‘’metataboos’.
Formal taboos instead are taboos usually sensed and recognised as taboos, nevertheless they usually remain unquestioned / not engaged, but there is always a certain level of awareness that such taboos do exist (Fontanive, 2020). “

simultaneously pacifist or seemingly pacifist protestors act like this:

  1. Whatever we are criticized about 
    • Identify with that
    • Rationalizing about dominant memes 
  2. Things are not taboo until you bring them up and no one wants to talk about it
    • When art is satanic by interpretation
      • Magical thinking structure should be analyzed
      • If the limb system is involved with imagination, then without making sense with the aim of not concluding, are we stuck with fear?

What Becomes a Staple Taboo?:

  1. Taboos are related to bad luck, evil, inferiority, ideas of pretentiousness, danger, distaste, shunning, etc
  2. It can also mess with ideal narrative or conclusions about something, such as the ‘proof’ assumed in 1950 is equatable to protect conclusion from further evidence in later years.
  3. Fear things need complexity, like in history, but of course we need to acknowledge what really happened, but there are just many different things. Such as in 1000s: Kievan Rus, Ghengis Khan, Ottoman empires Crusades, etc in one period of time
    1. If someone mocks our fear, they feel moved.
  4. A result of conditioning, place, situation, and status in social ranking / institution / expectations

“The 2020’s troubles with protests, racism, counter-racism and the complexity of the social turmoils related to these matters, provide a good example of how formal taboos operate, such as being shy to criticize certain contradictions in the Black Lives Matter movement for instance, like having forms of discrimination within the movement itself for example or even fear of criticizing which can lead to being called racist, and how informal taboos work, like a process of believing very strongly that there is absolutely nothing odd or dysfunctional in certain movements, because the taboo inherent in the belief a certain movement cannot be by any means criticize is so strong that actually becomes a totally blind form of epistemic acceptance (Fontanive, 2020).”

“Dark humor is actually a very good mean to understand what the quality and state of people’s thinking skills are. Considering how dark humor is intrinsically prone to ‘’disturb’’ people’s epistemic acceptances especially about what’s ‘’moral’’ and what’s ‘’immoral’’, engaging with black humor provides a decoding tool and filter capable of making us diagnose both: whether people invest in prioritizing limbic responses instead of logical ones or vice versa, and how intelligently mature or rather merely reactionary people are,
Also: the more ingrained in a certain belief, ism or ideology a person is, the less such a person is to appreciate dark, iconoclastic humor and rather takes that as something offensive, such as intelligent blasphemy for instance, or jokes that are conventionally considered amoral or indiscreet (Fontanive, 2020).”

Using intelligence versus ideas about being an intellectual (intellectualism)

  1. The one thing that probably is true we are all born not knowing how to have skills, and often require the stages of child development. (Working to gain a skill for survival is different than to apply and innovate.)
    1. In the U.S., due to the historical social norms, and the income, and other complex factors, but also due to not knowing where to find root problems, some people are better at maths and science than others. (It’s probably only been about two decades, for example, that women were allowed into Harvard.) 
      1. Idea of the ‘American’ as ‘intellectual’ among other factors, and sometimes censorship from government, narrative of the curriculum, the countries we had war against, etc, and more factors play into what made a ‘good person,’ ‘intellectual’
        1. That is subjective, memes about intellectual, which was effected by variations of memes coming rent memes
          1. Not to mention, speed and attention and distractions will not help
      2. Intellectual involves: observing, via Negativa, deductive thinking, abstracting and separating from validity, creating theories, applying and understanding constantly, innovating eventually, and trying to understand from different angles (multidimensionally / multilogicality).
        1. Do we really need to say someone was the first black woman to do something? And in a question in the one of the information science courses, the question seemed pointless: Why are there all white female librarians? 
          1. This is a monological question. I don’t know the answer, maybe not many black women are interested in information science.
          2. Also, this leaves out the male librarians, as there are plenty.
          3. Can there be a better understanding of how we relate to algorithmic bias, (which really cannot be biased since a. I. was not wired to be)?
            1. Most users don’t know how indexing / tagging / keywords works (I still don’t, and I’m trying to learn)

“Intelligence produces ideas, but ideas do not necessarily produce intelligence, and sticking to ideas is never an act of innovative intelligence (Fontanive, 2020).”


A few months earlier (November?)


Some people are easier to talk to than others. Regardless of knowing them or not, subjectivity takes front seat, and why wouldn’t it? Yesterday, I talked to seven people online, two from Canada, one from Australia, and the others from U.S. I wanted to glean information on how irrationality affects our actions. I asked about their thoughts on ripping up books. It was something that caught my attention, and I was told to do the same to make room for newer books on the shelves.

Who has ever heard of a librarian ripping up books?

Bringing this question up, I thought that it was manipulative. It was also weird because there wasn’t the dual ‘seek to succeed / fail’ mentality, which I tried to avoid. Simply put, if you observe and experiment, you probably should not have expectations and limit as much bias and fallacious as possible.

<Insert Pinocchio face here>.

I asked a taboo question in a group aimed at civil conversations in regards to taboos.

“What do you think about recycling books into art?”

Things went wrong with my delivery.

Then again, some people interpreted that as “Let’s burn down libraries for the sake of being evil!”

– Recycling is a last resort, and we ratrionalized that there were digitsal copies of the books

  • The historical burning of books was done to erase the cultural artifacts in the process housecleaning. It was not to make room for new books coming into the library.

I tend to meld different interests into a question that should have been broken into three or four questions. I was referring to library books that have not been checked out of the library since before 1970.

Imagine if I had asked about something even moreso taboo, like the Hindu boy who worshiped our president or a Christian soldier statue praying to a crucifix on the side of a highway?

But never take a selfie in front of a temple in India and come to the western viewers without them being horrified that there are swastikas everywhere.

Can we talk about things without identifying with the initial reaction and with history refereed to in the symbol? Every time i walked into my history class, some dictator or notorious religious leader was on the projector screen and would be topic of the lesson that day. Literally, Rasputin was boring his eyes into our heads for fifty minutes.

Why do some people jump at the sight of blood or bugs?

We connect ourselves to other peoples’ experiences, ideas, conclusions because they were influenced by ideas and ideologically-lead torture also. They acted in fear. We act in fear.

I asked one person their thoughts about approaching people who they feel are wrong to turn books into art. They said nothing can or should be done. Maybe that’s true with the external approach, but I could have asked about the internal approach, since she was clearly offended by the acts, separating what I said from what happened. She also confused burning and recycling.

As far as burning books is concerned, this has an ideological motivation intended to hurt the authors. Maybe I’m not thinking about this in as much depth, breadth, and accuracy from different vantage points. Then again, followers ignore the basic things that followers do: We followed orders without question, analysis, innovations.

I’m not going to be judgemental here.


Maybe a case study on others can be a case study on yourself as well.

A lot of mental work is involved, asking what people mean, and fearing you will intimidate people.

So what is the point of studying aliefs in our thought process and affecting our actions?

“To study aliefs is important, as important as studying beliefs, but without an actual training aimed at applying an anti-alief and meta-belief framework of thinking, nothing really happens.
The best framework of thinking is probably physics, not in the sense we have to study physics, but just as an analysis and analogy, this means that the best framework of thinking is about breking all down, reaching he core of certain contents, complexity, arguments, positions and so on to then reason it all up avoiding the unnecessary ideas, contructs, assumptions and so on (Fontanive, 2020).”

One crucial point is identifying with meaning, with memes that act like a virus in our mind. The virus would likely make us fear being rational because we think we’ll become the epitome of what ever pre-judgement is made about us.


April 2020


Op (original poster):


Hello everyone, 

I have a shareable link with two versions of the script, the abridged being the one with matching audio and visual files: https://drive.google.com/drive/folders/1-kbfvxfQ7Sy6u_cjJ5WlE9pGreVru8Uz 

Here is my activity followed by some questions:


Understanding how psychological pictures and algorithmic thinking work: Search for photos of symbols, cultural artifacts or rituals, places that were abandoned. Some ideas might be: voodoo, Wiccan symbols, Island of the Dolls, Chernobyl, etc. Take note of what your thoughts and feelings are while looking at each photo. Make a list of what you know or what is easily found. See if you can find another perspective to understand the story a little better. You can share the photos also with your notes if you want or give a kind of summary, highlighting key differences from your first observations of each photo and the key changes throughout observing. 

These are meant to be exercises to see how we can deduct invalid associations and discard those while highlighting what is objectively, imperially, and if possible, evidence-based validation. If possible, you may also observe the difference between thoughts / feelings and where your thinking is directed away from the thoughts. 


What are some useful, meaningful uses of environmentalism that come from creative thinking? 

What are some mystery books that might exemplify arguments and deductive thinking? 

Can you make an argument regarding copyright issues in relation to cases such as the case of Aaron Swartz or Ted Talk hosted by Nina Paley?

Google critiques France on the law of the right to be forgotten. What are your thoughts for both sides?

Humanities and Memetics don’t go together. What can you glean and propose from lectures by Daniel Dennett?

  • “A personal note!
    I think Dennett has very good points and reflections, but he is somehow way too immersed and absorbed in his intellectualism and has the proneness to sink into many fallacies, as the title of his book ‘’Consciousness explained’’ suggests!
    Nobody knows what consciousness is. So far we don’t know that that is. Hopefully in the future and likely thanks to the help of AI development we will know more and more and better and better but until now nobody really knows nor can say or ‘’explain’’ what consciousness is without being biased, subjective and fundamentally evidence-less (Fontanive, 2020).”

Person #1

“Your presentation was interesting on how people interpret images and symbols, psychological pictures and algorithmic digital images is an import topic to consider with the rise of social media culture. There are a lot of images surfing the internet with little facts and content and people make their own assumptions through fear and ignorant unaware of history, cultural background, and is it a hoax.

Here are some images that I’m aware of but may get different interpretations.

This is a hieroglyph painting by the Indigenous Natives of the canyons in southwest North America. This is interesting because there is always feedback about these painted images of extraterrestrials. This is something you see interpreted in social media and television, but in fact these are both paintings of dream states that are reenacted in ceremonials dances and practices with people dressed in regalia this is a practice that still goes on today.   

These are a series of photos by Edward S. Curtis a photographer and ethnologist who was known for taking photos of Native American people during the late 1800’s to the early and mid-1900’s. Like many other people and I enjoy looking at these photos and I thought these were photos of Indigenous people in their tribal clothing. However, that is not the case with a lot of the photos he has taken. Curtis actually staged and manipulated these photos having Native people dress in clothing not of their own, so with that being said this was an early form of a hoax that was mentioned in slide 6 of your presentation. I like to state not all the photos were manipulation but there were a large number of photos native people dressed in regalia not of their own and some natives partly dressed posing doing stage activities. Here’s a link : Edward S. Curtis Photo’s

This is my favorite image; I remember when the image was on social media and people thought this was real. This image brought suspicion for three months. This image was created by Steven Paul Judd who is a Kiowa-Choctaw pop artist now known for rendering reproductive historic photographs. He is creating art that makes one laugh and think. This photo with Two native men by a UFO did have people thinking making assumptions.

This photo is a classic in the topic of your presentation with images and psychology. Bistable drawings, Ambiguous figures designed to allow two interpretations.

I would like to answer question 2:

Annie Jacobsen, Area 51: An uncensored History of America’s Top-Secret Military Base (2011).     

My Ebook Publishing House, UFO Encounters: An Amazing Collection of UFOs and Aliens “True” Stories, (2016).

Francesco Grassi, Crop Circles Signs of Intelligence, (2016).

G.W. Mullins, C.L. Hause, Star People Sky Gods and Other Tales of the Native American Indians, (2017) (Lee, 2020).”

“Note: It’s important to know the human perceptual phenomenon called ‘’Pareidolia (Fontanive, 2020).’’




“Those are interesting photos, I haven’t thought of cave paintings. 

I’ve recently came across Jason Colavito, who has a list of posts that debunk seasons of Ancient Aliens, among other questionable thins, that was interesting. 

I could have  rephrased the activity differently. When I was doing it myself, I was asked about my own beliefs, but it would be easer for now to see what other people will assume, allowing beliefs, desires, fears, imagination, and wanting something familiar to make conclusions of things that are not clear. 

In the Atlantic articles, person taking the photos had an aim to make observations and educate people. In cases where pictures were accepted by public paper, and there has to be something familiar about the culture, there would be some negotiation, propaganda, or something to appear honest about intentions. 

For historical purpose and preservation, similarly this project on slave narrative reminds me of a conversation an undergraduate course had regarding interpretations and intents and ideas along the process of collecting narratives.: https://www.loc.gov/collections/slave-narratives-from-the-federal-writers-project-1936-to-1938/about-this-collection/

People underestimate the power of photoshop.

“Absolutely, Since the birth of photo manipulation for instance, the belief in angels & miracles increased very considerably (Fontanive, 2020).”

I will have to check out these books. I have heard disdain from people from different areas, not online Native American, against the new age misuse of legends and culture. Plus, there are many conspiracy theorists online regarding places like Area 51.”

Person #2

Hi, Heebe. Have you seen I’m Not the Indian You Had in Mind? Your comments about Curtis reminded me of this short film. You may want to check it out: https://www.nsi-canada.ca/2012/03/im-not-the-indian-you-had-in-mind/ 

Person #1

I have not seen this file before but the statement and meaning is a very common issue with indigenous people in modern urban communities. Thank you for sharing this it was enlightening to watch and the words were spot on, definitely I will share with others. 


“I decided to answer question 4 because this is a topic I think is super interesting. Radiolab (my favorite) did a great episode on the subject that you can find here. Ultimately, I come down on the side of the right to be forgotten. Human memory is malleable and impermanent and people who may make small mistakes in their youth should have that information expire after a certain amount of time (just like juveniles serving their terms in detention facilities usually get their records expunged). For serious crimes, I don’t think their records should be expunged, just in the same way the criminal system doesn’t “let them go”. I can understand why many want to keep those records or headlines accessible forever because they were bad and deserve to be included with their digital reputation, but I think we need to approach this as a spectrumed, nuanced issue, not black and white. 

What I mean is our current tendency to “cancel” people for old statements. 

I think the conversation around Kevin Hart is a good illustration of this. There were homophobic tweets that were unearthed in January 2018, written over a decade ago that he had since apologized for and deleted from his Twitter. However, when it was announced he’d host the Oscars, people wanted him to apologize again. He refused. His reasoning was that it was something he already apologized for and made strides to improve, but many thought it was him refusing to acknowledge his homophobia, and therefore he must still be homophobic. This was his statement on Ellen, which was an obvious political calculation on Hart’s behalf. Who knows what is actually true- all I know is that it ultimately escalated to him being fired from hosting and he hasn’t posted any other homophobic comments in the years since. 

I don’t know which is right. That’s not really my job. What I do know is that the world is incredibly different now with a mass archive of everyone’s collective thoughts, without the context to see if that person has changed for the better. I don’t want to apologize for Kevin Hart (who I think is problematic for a number of reasons), but I do think we culturally have a tendency to throw the baby out with the bathwater as a cultural whiplash to injustice before there was a vocabulary and a collective consciousness about that injustice. Many people were deeply homophobic at that time, and the collective support for the LGBTQ+ community was entirely different then as it is now. I am not saying that his tweets were okay or that he shouldn’t have gotten heat for those statements, but we are also not giving him an opportunity to really atone. In the same way we tell children not to judge the mores and cultures of a historic place, we are kind of doing that now in real time with everything accessible at our fingertips. 

I should also say that this case is relatively mild compared with actual crimes committed. Again, it’s a nuanced issue. I don’t think off-colored statements carry the same weight as guilty verdicts (Skubal-Moran, 2020).”



I wanted to have a longer response, but I agree we tend to remember what we want to remember based on the information we first received. This seems to also remind me of duration neglect, inattention bias, and peak end effect fallacy combined (+ confirmation bias of course). 

Blurred out images of people can also be good for confidentiality and not exactly censorship either, so discussions about this seem crucial and interesting to have.”



Person #5:

“You chose a very interesting and complex topic—I think I may still be processing all of it long after the semester ends. We focused on some of these topics during my undergraduate studies, and they can be challenging for some of us to wrap our minds around.

I would like to answer number 4, but I feel like much more research is needed than time allows, so I will say this: I think it comes down to two big arguments of censorship versus privacy and the individual versus society, arguments that will drone on for all time. I think a great debate about the reaches and limits of government is also necessary. Truthfully, I do not fully understand how the GDPR defines personal data, and there seems to be so much subjectivity to it—it makes my head hurt thinking about it. And then, I wonder, is it easier for certain social classes, people of influence, to have their information erased? I tried going straight to the source: https://gdpr.eu/right-to-be-forgotten/

Prior to your activity, I knew nothing of the Island of the Dead Dolls. According to Business Insider, “A few miles from the heart of Mexico City lies La Isla de las Muñecas, the Island of Dolls, where thousands of dolls hang from the trees.” The dolls were hung there by Don Julian Santana after abandoning his family in Mexico City. Supposedly, he found the drowned body of a girl and her doll floating in the canals. Others believe he imagined her. For the rest of his life, he collected and hung up dolls as a way of honoring her lost soul.

At first, I found the images bizarre and unsettling. The second picture bothers me the most because it reminds me of my daughter. My maternal instinct wants to take her down from the tree, clean her off, and snuggle her. However, the third picture (with Barbie and Elmo), ended all emotion—something about their commercialism and lack of anonymity ruined it for me (Labeau, 2020).”






“I agree that there is a lot of subjectivity and there isn’t enough time to create an argument, but you brought up questions which come from looking into identifying them. 

It seems like, on the surface, the laws only apply to certain groups and does not have a point geared at individuals and situations between / amongst individuals or people not part of an organization. 

I was disturbed by those images and the story behind it also. I would have just run away or avoided the island. I was actually going to mention the story behind the painting of “The Starry Night” by Van Gogh.”


Person #6

“…they seemed very eerie and haunting. The first picture I chose reminded me of something out of a horror movie. The second image, while disturbing, was also saddening because so many people including children felt the long-lasting effects of the disaster. According to the United States Nuclear Regulatory Commission’s website “many children and adolescents in the area in 1986 drank milk contaminated with radioactive iodine, which delivered substantial doses to their thyroid glands. To date, about 6,000 thyroid cancer cases have been detected among these children. Ninety-nine percent of these children were successfully treated; 15 children and adolescents in the three countries died from thyroid cancer by 2005.” (NRC, 2018). The third image reminded me that any tragedy can be exploited for money. This image was from an article in the New York Times, the journalist traveled to Chernobyl to write a story about the rise in tourism. While I understand that some may want to some people may visit places like that to learn about the history, there are others who do not have respect for the people who lost their lives “A, 2020).”




“That is very informative about Chernobyl. I had recently been looking into what the disaster was, not knowing anything about it. There was aerial footage of forest fires still in the area. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qspiEEx8_xU.

The third picture reminds me of these tourists doing handstands in Auschwitz.”


Person #6:

“I would like to respond to question four. The right to be forgotten is complex. I am grateful to have grown up before phone cameras become competent and commonplace. When we are still growing up not all of our decisions reflect who will become. Now everything can be recorded and people live their lives posted on Youtube. I missed out on good photos and videos of my music performances back then, but I like that mistakes I made are not documented as well.

I think everything being saved is the natural course we are on. Asking to be forgotten seems to be the appropriate concession to help those that need to be forgotten. The problem with asking to be forgotten is the potential to be used to cover up truths and change narratives (Souza, 2020).”


Person # 7:

“I agree technology is playing a big role in our society. As Kyle said, now everything can be recorded easily and it could be accessed very easily through social media accounts and Youtube. I am not sure if I would like to update these social media sites on a daily basis and wonder why people want to record and upload their personal/daily routine to the youtube sites (Mazher, 2020).”


Would you be interested in a group about a serious study about human stupidity?

In response to people who may be annoyed by a group aimed at studying stupidity, this group is not an arrogant mockery about stupidity, but a serious approach about the matter. As for those who join, we insist that you resist any propensity toward needing to look smart, which is an unfortunate depiction of stupidity online. It is a relevant and critical topic in the era of the internet. We intend to engage people in studying and creating activities about stupidity and related topics from multilogical and metamemetic perspectives. See glossary for those terms.

How Many Distracting Thoughts Interfere With Our Actions?

Vicariously put yourself in one of these situations and describe how you maneuver and how your thought processes react and respond to the environment.


  • Walking across a bridge, you see the canyon deep below, though you don’t see the bottom. It looks like it might jump up and grab you to pull you down into the abyss.


  • Airports


  • You are in a room of mirrors that is a maze, probably going in circles. 


  • A crowded grocery store or marketplace with aisles of food.


  • On the ocean, fishing where the pogies are (so you anticipate that most likely catch a fish)


  • Somebody calls on you to answer a question in a college classroom but you do not know the answer, but people look at you, expectingly.
  • You are reading a book and annoyed that you do not understand or like the story or contents, but you feel you must read the book anyway, can i meet the goal to reach the knowledge i want elsewhere? Should I be looking at all? When we go to a database, with more variables and opinions, what do we care about? What did we care about?


  • You are camping by a beach and its night time, and you can actually see the stars, maybe Venus, maybe Alpha Centauri. Feel the cool sand beneath, but invented fears or low probability of danger is increased by the thoughts in our mind, and the sense of danger sets in, even though the probability is low compared to if you were surrounded by bears or wolves. Instead, there are ants and birds, maybe crabs. 


  • You are in a graveyard, shocked and supposed to act like everybody else, but you don’t. People think that’s wrong or ‘psychotic.’


  • You are in a museum but cannot take pictures. You study the picture, and try to remember for later when you write down the picture. What do you remember?


  • Search your ‘browsing history’ on the internet, particularly youtube or a similar social media site


Did you expect something to be a certain way? If it did not happen like this, how do you react and respond?


When do you think irrationality lends into stupidity? What might happen in this timeframe?

Notes on Space, engineering, Technology, and Psychology articles

Summaries & Notes on References

Wu, Bin, et al. “On-orbit sleep problems of Astronauts and countermeasures.” Military Medical Research, vol. 5, no. 1, 2018.


Circadian rhythms are lacking in space, so it impacts sleep cycles.

Sleeping quality has been recorded as low for many astronauts in the first quarter of a mission, and REM sleep rebounded after returning to earth.

In a 1988 report regarding applied sleep medication, sleeping pills and pills for rashes were used 10 times more than average American uses.

Physiology (which space motion sickness drugs were applied to) and psychology are vital areas of concern to address, of which I want to explore mental health here. There is some data on anxiety, depression, intra-crew conflict, and personality changes. “… sleeping for less than 6 hours in 7 consecutive nights chased impaired performance, hardly returned to normal levels even after 3 nights of sleep free (Wu, Bin, et al, 2018).”

Cortisol levels increase after 1 night of sleep deprivation and individuals more stressed when members joined all had stress. In July of 2017, Hera, an experiment, aimed to discover countermeasures against sleep deprivation in isolation. Researchers wanted them to sleep 5 hours sleep overnight for week then 8 hours for two more nights to recover from irregular cycles.  The results do not reported yet.

With effects from previous studies by these authors, regarding cognition. Long periods of isolated confinement lengthens perceptual awareness.




Vakoch, Douglas. (2011). Psychology of space exploration: Contemporary research in historical perspective. https://www.researchgate.net/publication/319979791_Psychology_of_space_exploration_Contemporary_research_in_historical_perspective

People take longer to respond than normal. Memory accuracy and prospective memory also, but rate of retrieval and response is longer. Reaction time takes longer and rate of accuracy decreases. This may be an important detail considering that in one hand, we normally don’t know how to find and distinguish accuracy from what’s not accurate. The brain top-down control decreased, but then the stimulus-driven system was enhanced (p. 72, authors, year).” Weakened Visual alertness seemed to be related to decrease in volume of grey matter in thalamus. Operational performance weakened from volunteers and docking. Relying on an attentional network will mean we need focus on helping sleep cycles.

In the latter end of the space mission, there was emotional confusion and research shows no change in depression. 72 hours spent without normal sleep cycles depletes positive mod. Tension in relationships increased when the threshold of negative emotion decreased, something subtle could be seen as more intense.

Chinese researchers mentioned ginsenoside could prevent cognitive impairment due to sleep deprivation in mice. Caffeine, modafinil, and detociphetamime (caused disrupted recovery sleep time) stimulated performance. In Apollo 7, some astronauts fell asleep on duty and took amphetamine. Melatonin was found to help with alignment of circadian rhythms. Zolpidem increased duration sleep but decreased mood the next day.

There should be a more habitable space for temperature, weather, change in carbon dioxide levels, sleeping condition, and to complete tasks. TCM was recommended, and a reasonable work-rest schedule. Schedules early on help detect and mitigate stress and health issues.

There needs to be further experiments that ensure safety, mental as well physical health, performance on earth, in space, and eventually in terms of AI and space colonization.

<According to Nick Kamas, problems include if missions cannot be completed, if group members cannot collaborate. Psychological considerations are not studied, and not in a multilogical way. Missions are set in a schedule so that when a mission ends, the next next needs to start. Usually, there are six people, it’s a two-year long mission. To approach problems, needs: Robotic missions, organized teams / managementEffective teleportation, enough preparation. The glove box experiment monitors rovers on Mars, Automotives serving shuttle crews via satelite. Must align with human-sensory, human-perceptual, processes Challenger, Columbia missions lost and delayed missionsFaulty judgement + miscommunication + technical failure.>


Jandial, Rahul, et. al. “Space-brain: the negative effects of space exposure on the central nervous system.” Surgical Neurology International, vol. 9, no. 1, 2018, p. 9Gale Academic Onefile. Accessed 20, February 2020.

This article examines known knowledge about neurology in applying hoe being in space will impact our mental health. Tests on rats show that space radiation will be a crucial concern. Structure of neurons will change with exposure to radiation due to plasticity Jandial, 2020). Form and function are associated and would need to be intact to respond properly to radiation when paradoxically, structure changes from it, which will affect behavior and regulating response to radiation.  Dna methylation can change, and that potentially impacts memory, judgement, and learning, affecting cognitive deficits. There are anatomical concerns, which seemed to be recovered after returning to earth, weeks to four years for some astronauts. Radiation and microgravity affect the biology of the brain. Place cells translate visuospatial cues, which would be altered by microgravity. An experiment while in earth-orbit is with biofilm, which affects gastrointestinal organs, but is, when activated, a virulent bacteria, and eventually affects other organs.

I think this is partly why it’s important to make things like earth on Mars, with models by Jeff Bezos, Tyson, Elon. Use, and nanotechnology and artificial intelligence will assist. MedicL approaches, bio printing, stem cell research could be applied.

Having a blue sky on earth has been shown to correlate with regular circadian Ruth,s also, and Mars’ day and night cycles last forty minutes longer than on earth. There are many changes, and seems that little focus is on psychology itself, but considering such things like sleep deprivation, a kind of haziness (inability to focus for long periods of time), not having a center of gravity, and other factors make it hard to record an experience while in space or low-earth orbit.

Virtual reality systems have been implemented to train astray astronauts in space to prevent extreme, maladaptive responses, hallucinations, delusions, and anxiety. And depression (ibid).  Neurovestibular side effects could be controlled with modified exercising in space, like treadmills.

Liu, Q., Zhou, R., Zhao, X. et al. Acclimation during space flight: effects on human emotion. Military Med Res 3, 15 (2016). https://doi.org/10.1186/s40779-016-0084-3

Emotional training and regulation are recommended during long-term space flights. Positive effect was stable in the shorter durations. There are many internal and interpersonal interactions affecting emotions, space will be a new factor (Qing, et. al., 2020). Rating scales and questionnaires are used in measuring emotions. Regulation of visceral functions are in the autonomic nervous system, sympathetic and parasympathetic for the excitatory and inhibitory effects (ibid). Combined approaches are needed for complex causes and connections of emotions. Multiple areas in the brain show connectivity, relating to avoidance or approachability.

Psychological and physical processes are needed to help adapt in a natural environment. Microgravity and change in circadian rhythms are two of the most critical factors in preparing for space exploration, implemented in earth-based experience might help e anime reactions of stress (Qing, et. al., 2020). There are specific, internal factors of stress like fatigue and relationship factors of stress and then isolating environmental factors of stress. Coping mechanism might differ also.

<Note: Gravity has a psychological and physical impact. Spacecraft and stations have are in a controlled free-fall... Other planets and planetoids have gravity.

> Analog / earth-based habitat experiments have shown effects of microgravity on emotion, but other factors were not added. The workload and sleep cycles, for instance, might not have been studied alongside microgravity-affects. For varying factors, observation on individual levels needed. In a group of studies, a four stage model of emotional change included: physical and psychological discomfort, weeks after space flight still unaccustomed to isolation and confinement, in six-twenty week, the astronauts risk instability, highlighted by isolation and being alone (low energy levels and used stimulating music), and at the end showed sign of euphoria. The third stage could last a few years, and that is where personal and emotional issues illuminate.

In the adaptive stage model, Rohrer considers the impact of confinement on performance and relationships. “In the first stage, the individual feels more anxiety and nervousness. In the second stage, the individual feels depressed because of a monotonous and boring life. In the third stage, the individual shows obvious hostility (page 3, Qing, et. al, 2020).” HDBR and autonomous games have shown to help mood and activity levels in some studies (ibid).

Ending a period of HDBR decreased vigor and inappetence in females after 15 days and in males after 45 days, continual decrease in interest and appetite. The effect of HDBR on males negatively affects the positive affect. However, “… an individual’s mood would have a tendency to fluctuate among prophase anxiety, metaphase boring, and end-stage excitement (p. 4, Qing, et. al, 2020).” Previous studies showed decrease in ability to regulate emotions with increase in aggravated negative emotions. The XX differences are probably socially constructed, but they mentioned differences in reactivity, regulation of, and coping with emotions (ibid).


Mogilever NB, Zuccarelli L, Burles F, Iaria G, Strapazzon G, Bessone L and Coffey EBJ (2018) Expedition Cognition: A Review and Prospective of Subterranean Neuroscience With Spaceflight Applications. Front. Hum. Neurosci. 12:407. doi: 10.3389/fnhum.2018.00407


Behavior and performance are being examined in underground caves which share a similar environment to space. Experiments and research and lab work will compliment each other to affect safety and performance in space. Privacy elimination, separation from family and friends, delayed communication are among crucial problems that are not anticipated (and more articles are on things not related to psychology with space exploration).

The way the spaceship environment is like being in a packed bus for three weeks with people you don’t know and not knowing of an end or having any kind of familiar scene since space is not familiar to us. Space analog environment experiments will be closer to a familiar situation to see the relationship between brain function, nervous system, emotions, and behaviors.

In experiment in caves and off earth, “…a much larger set of questions can be asked during modern expeditions; of sleep and circadian rhythms, but also about sensation and perception, spatial navigation, interpersonal interactions and teamwork, human factors design, stress, and the impact of these stressors on wellbeing and performance (p.8, Mogilever, et. al, 2020).” Personally, I was curious about the types of questions asked.

Bell ST, Brown SG and Mitchell T (2019) What We Know About Team Dynamics for Long-Distance Space Missions: A Systematic Review of Analog Research. Front. Psychol. 10:811. doi: 10.3389/fpsyg.2019.00811

This is a review of quantitative, interdisciplinary research.

Trends include need for more socialization in shorter missions, consistent team efficiency over time more typical but decrease is atypical, within 90 days on mission, 40% reported a conflict (no more than six per month), decrease in written communication over time with mission commander, and mood dynamic in teams were not consistent with third-quarter phenomenon (ibid).

Experiments are meant to add research long distance space exploration missions (in initials). Team members had to work in confinement for thirty minutes. Situations to manage including landing on Mars, conflicts in between people, social support for stressors being in flight revealing that team cohesion and performance will differ from teams outside confinement (ibid). Negative effect in relative time at the end of a mission was team mood.

Since a morsel of research cannot predict all cases and situations, not much had been published (ibid). Their approach might also interfere with local validity distribution. There are areas where there is a reduction of risking biased theories. Dynamics of a team can be applied to LDSEM and further research in the future.


Williams, D. R., & Turnock, M. (2011). Human space exploration the next fifty years. McGill journal of medicine : MJM : an international forum for the advancement of medical sciences by students, 13(2), 76.

Salyut (Russian space station) & Skylab (Nasa-based) observed length of time and durability of humans living in microgravity of low-earth orbit -> need to meet physiology, health, time, and capacity
Space shuttle assigned carry payload to and from earth platform in microgravity of low earth orbit to repair and launch satellites.
Health facilities such as in Canex decompression sickness via hyperbaric capabilities (not yet have facilities due to price constraint). Skylab biomedical research leads to finding executive, cardiovascular, and neurovascular needs.

Their plan is to use and apply robotic mannequins to perform medical procedures. Additionally, members should communicate and deliver health support through space another challenge as we move further outward

Kalb R, Solomon D. Space Exploration, Mars, and the Nervous System. Arch Neurol. 2007;64(4):485–490. doi:10.1001/archneur.64.4.485

kricek said…


We need a multilogicalall approach to space exploration, as compulsory to survive, we should become interplanetary.


Culturally, we are conditioned to be more agreeable. Trying not to hurt other people’s feelings is a dominating meme in the development of becoming female.

This is behavioral psychology.

On the biological side, the reality is that men tend to be more physical strong. Brains themselves are not different.

This is stemming from truthful and verifiable data. Psychologically, we are effected by cultural expectations that are ingrained in history.

Chemically speaking, too much emotion loses a healthy response in the brain.

Article: “Gender and Crew Domination In MDRS Stimulations

Since this leads generally to avoid the discriminatory aspects…

Based on the mindset approaching a problem like stem research, the person who is religious may have more conflicts about deciding to raise animals made in a stem cell laboratory. This could also show why implicit bias is complicated, and why being religious really is not bad. It just causes more psychological pictures to think through. However, it’s the quality of the relationship to our ability to make decisions and theories that is important.

Training Astronauts

Mars Academy (interest from Boeing, SpaceX, and MASA)

SpaceWhy it is neededEntails or implies Colonization population rise
Life expectancy increasingexploration resourcesEarth is not sufficient enough to support increasing populationideas of problems Despite fears resulting from a sense that we are in danger, our responses tend to be monological.
Policymaking effects how space projects will be perceived.factual problems fear of losing the familiar, to an extreme level

Preventing need to fire people from a mission find a way to make things familiar, to be accustomed to in order to survive and evolve

Multilogicality hopefully prevent chaos for entire community and mission

Space Colonization (being on another planet)

It takes a few years to reach Mars.

Psychologically and physically, we feel safer knowing that we see the earth and can return in case of an emergency requiring the space station to return to earth.

Space exploration implies that crew members are in space inside a space station with zero gravity.

Space stations can also be in the outermost layer of earth’s atmosphere.


(Diego Fontanive wrote this in early 2020):

“I would add some salient points:

These following points appear to be simple points but are utterly important because if only one of these points manifests itself in a scenario such as a crew facing a space long trip (for instance to Mars or Titan, or Europa _{which are the best candidates for human colonization in our star system}_ or an established interplanetary base on the Moon, Mars, Titan, Europa or space stations): the whole mission/s will be put enormously at risk:

1- Environment and psychology: 

Due to many factors such as environmental factors like coexisting for a long time in a small, protected environment or a lack of gravity and so on; a crew member can experience severe depression, even suicidal thoughts: this possibility should be strictly prevented. 

2- Problems caused by arguing / disagreements / personal conflicts with other crew members: 

this possibility should also be avoided because it can easily put the whole crew at risk. 

3- Romantic relationships among crew members: 

This should be avoided too when the crew is a crew of pioneers, meaning a small team. It won’t constitute a problem if it takes place in a large community such as a community of 1000 people on Mars for instance or on the Moon. 

4- Problem with removing crew members:

We cannot ”fire” a person on a Mars mission or on Mars / Europa / Titan: this means that any possible severe disagreement and even the development of mental disorders must be predicted and prevented in all possible ways. 
There are also plenty of technical factors that must be taken into account. For instance: a long trip in space exposes the crew to space radiation which can penetrate the spacecraft easily. The exposure along one month of cosmic radiation can reach ten times or more the normal exposure we tolerate on earth along one year. 
This risk can affect the crew’s cognitive abilities and can cause mental illnesses. 
A way to avoid this is to increase the thickness of the spacecraft’s walls but this is a problem because the heavier the craft is, the more and more difficult it becomes to make the craft reach escape velocity and escaping the critical mass point during the launch, unless the craft is directly built in space eventually using industrial space 3D printers, but despite we do have this technology already, the costs to build something like that would be incredibly high.
Another solution is to add water within an inter-space contained inside the spacecraft’s walls. This is probably the best and economic solution, precisely because water is one of the best elements to block cosmic radiation. Still: this is a bit of a problem regarding the craft’s escape velocity during launch. 

5- Religion / Beliefs: 

Despite this point is controversial to some: nevertheless the crew should not have religious people on board because despite likely nothing will really happen, nevertheless having some religious crew members can summon a potential risk. Summoning potential risks is totally antithetical to any protocol on which any space mission is based. (Moderate) religious people can eventually be part of planetary colonies but should not be among pioneers’ crew teams (Fontanive, 2020).”


Kalb R, Solomon D. Space Exploration, Mars, and the Nervous System. Arch Neurol. 2007;64(4):485–490. doi:10.1001/archneur.64.4.485</h1

How do space missions impact vestibular and neurological systems? Microgravity causes astray autos to have muscle failure, experience rise in temperature, fatigue and stress, a decrease in motor control and coordination, and delayed muscle reactions. Vestibular system helps reorientation. Degeneration and synapses affects how we respond to the environment since it has changed.

We are not naturally skilled to respond accurately or control responses. There should be a way to monitor success of biological responses to space missions and bioprinting applications.

Mars is the best candidate in the solar system (distance and resources). There seems to be comments about the moon being an option, but there are disagreements about this.

Medical concerns are being addressed and applied in labs in space. Astronauts explore the planetary surface for 500 days. Health & performance must be monitored but support available in case of a terminal emergency. This was mentioned in the article below, but microbes could replenish expired or eradicated pharmaceuticals.

3D bioprinting is applied to materials like metal, polymers, ceramic, to cells, tissues, and organs, helping with research to recover from toxins and addiction. Regenerated material must copy the microstructure of human organs. The tissues in the mold / scaffolding have limited exchangeability with oxygen between tissues. Real tissues are required for nutrients and solubility.

The ESA’s long-term vision to apply this tech to colonizing and exploring space missions. The challenge is that the planet must be earth-like to grow stem cells. Elements and vitamins needed in animals help stem cell tissues grow. How our body takes in medicine must align to processes that will make up 3D prints. There is also the eventual emerging with AI.

Financial concerns? Amor Meneezes suggested that space metrics can be decided by what and how things are produced, which will cut prices. (I’m not sure, again, if these sources are still relevant. Policymaking is another issue and probably very relevant as well. Could we have a decentralized economy run by blockchain in space? Or this is open to research and discussion, experimentation).

Yarris, Lynn. “Synthetic Biology for Space Exploration.” (2014).https://newscenter.lbl.gov/2014/11/05/synthetic-biology-for-space-exploration//.

The costs of food, fuel, medicine, and oxygen costs = 99units multiplied by the unit of payload mass. Nanotechnology and water-lined rockets could help. A study in “Towards Synthetic Biology Approaches to Resource Utilization on Space Missions’ ‘ proposes a feasible option being synthetic 3D print-a-habitat applied to the spaceship during launch. The cost of food would drop 38% and 56% drop in fuel manufacturing.

Nanotechnology is Fault-tolerant and autonomous. Multifunctional materials offer resistance against thermal, radiation, and impact, being new approaches for energy generation and storage and distribution. (Diego Fontanive mentioned that water is a favorable shield from radiation in the rocket when leaving Earth’s orbit).


“Nanotechnology in Space Exploration.” https://www.nano.gov/sites/default/files/pub_resource/space_exploration_rpt_0.pdf.

Konstantinus Biapis & Yunxi Yaa theorized about why streams of oxygen come off comets. Carbon is in the rust and sand on a planet. When a comet hits this planet, the carbon splits from the O2 molecules. The comets could be water molecules. The Hershel telescope detected oxygen molecules in space.

Anderson, J. L. (1988). Technology for Human Self-Sufficiency in Space. SAE Technical Paper Series. doi: 10.4271/881013

The Society of Automotive Engineering devised an approach to technology that can support humans in space (which at least did not exist when this paper was published). Since humans are confined in a small place with other people for a long time, there are many risks and environment-caused stress.

There is a need for advanced technological systems to monitor health performance, and life support. The technology is not yet available to measure requirements and conditions meeting the needs for missions. They are working in these concerns are mentioned in a book called, “Psychology of Space Exploration: Contemporary Research in Historical Perspective” edited by Douglas A. Vakoc

Notes for Space Research Applications (response with link to original article)

Shortcuts might carry out more magnitude consequences. We need to be skilled, long-term thinkers and agents (a person or thing that takes an active role or produces a specified effect on someone else’s behalf (Rebsdorf, Smith, 2020).




Here are some thoughts that came up overall:




The example of comparing the fear of dying by tornadoes compared to dying by asthma attacks remind me of peak end effect fallacy and inattention bias, and, such as what could be what happens in creating or watching various news stories about an event over a period of time in order to make sense of it. How do people respond, and why?




I wonder about reading about ai-based research along with space colonization research.


Leaders and team members could / should be training to make decisions, especially in a rational, relevant, effective way to collaborate with other people. We are not used to a lot of the effects that will happen, and I think technology and multi-disciplinary research projects / experiments will play a great role (though we would have to be very careful, attentive to experiments).


What if leadership was different than people who follow are relying on that alone?


Training of thinking innovatively, in groups, in confinement, before the possible manifestation based on previous experimenting of it would be important. The concern with beliefs, potentially, might be addressed, if it becomes an obstacle to decisions being acted out. For example, could we preserve and replicate species with application of stem-cell research? This might seem irrelevant, but if someone making decisions had double, emotionally, with the idea, there might be interpersonal friction.


What effective projects might be based in other fields that are in the works?




In current research, it would also be interesting to collect research on journals kept by astronauts for tasks, how to handle the experience in low-orbit, working in confinement for long periods of time, etc.




Diaries I have come across include


Astronaut’s Journal” by Jeffry A. Hoffman

“Diary of an Apprentice Astronaut” by Samantha Christoforetti

“Journal of an Astronaut” by G. Sutton Breiding

“Nostalgia of the Infinite: Journal Of an Astronaut” by Janet Hamill

“From Antarctica to outer space: Life in isolation and confinement” by A. A. Harrison and Y. Al Clearwater and C. P. McKay

I will have to look up that “New Long Foundation.”


These are extrapolated on via past conversations with Diego Fontanive as well and notes on previous work.

Serious Thinking Podcast: Mars & Metamemetics & Multilogical Thinking

Mars & Metamemetic thinking

Abridged summary:

NASA, Boeing, and the air force are interested in the Mars Academy that is planned to spread but first set up within a mile of SpaceX.

Mistakes and the wrong way of thinking are expensive. A single life can cause a series of catastrophic problems like stealing water and not telling anyone. He needs approach that manages emotions, because of feeling trapped in a suit with the same people in

a small space for a long period of time. Identifying and Distinguishing productive from malproductive and unnatural elements causing emotions.

There can be an antidote to life on Mars for after the singularity event.  The natural qualities of adaptation will change dramatically.

We will need to find thinking, decision-making skills, accuracy, etc.

We must be willing to refine and takes years to prepare with geology, astrology, physics, gravity, etc. $5 billion to out someone on Mars.


POV: Psychological Impact of Confinement

“A short perspective of the psychological impact of the situation. It appears to be obvious how the unpreparedness of current psychological approaches won’t be able to handle the long run curve of the mental pandemic to come. ”A smile”, ”listening to people who want to talk”, etc, won’t be enough!
It also appears to be obvious how new, in depth approaches will be required and as soon as possible. Average people’s thinking must obviously be rewired!
I am currently talking with some psychologists, psychiatrists and policymakers in India, UK & NY, discussing EOF-based cognitive programs / approaches / protocols to be proposed throughout 2020-2021(and how).
This is also going to be a salient series of approaches that will be highlighted during EOF Project Tour 2020-21’s academic conference events (Fontanive, 2020).. “

Italy’s coronavirus death toll is the second highest in the world, and its lockdown is the strictest and longest in Europe. Doctors say both things are creat…
About this website


I wrote drunk, edited sober. And repeated.

Now what?


My next project.


Following the advice of Neil Gaiman: write like you knew what you were doing the whole time. Isn’t that what speakers do when they go up on stage and hide the script behind the podium and microphone, leaning in?


Make a mess and find a way to navigate, chucking the useless, dusting off the things that need furnishing, creating, and adapting.

I knitted 15 totes before crafting something a bit decent and with a pattern, if I can call this decent. At least it was not a waste of yarn and string.


What is something you have improved upon this week so far?

“Where Are you Going? Where Have You Been?” An Historical Perspective on Joyce Carol Oate’s Work

56500772_2289565037732853_4808557797333532672_o_2289565004399523Joyce Carol Oates wrote Where Are You Going, Where Have You Been? to be set in the Southwestern United States during the 1960’s. Connie, the main character, is transforming from a teenager into an adult and lives in a rural area, possibly in Tucson, Arizona. This era was a time of consistent breakthroughs of liberal freedoms, hence the splurge of social movements and experimentation with new lifestyles that many hadn’t had before. One event inspired Oates to write this horrifying story of an individual forced to make a life or death decision in an increasingly unpredictable society that would lead to a crucial decision of trust. Trust, for Connie, whirls her life toward a tragic end.

The inspiration for this story was Charles Schmidt, a thirty-two-year-old man whose characteristics of charm, false charisma, and trickery run parallel to Arnold Friend, Connie’s intruder. Schmidt was an orphan with a low self-esteem and couldn’t satisfy himself until he found a notorious hobby. He was responsible for four girls went missing shortly after approaching them. Schmidt’s helpers eventually confessed to the police, and the three were sentenced for a number of decades, with Schmidt having the longest number of years on trial. People like Pied Piper took advantage of the free will the youth of the sixties had while parents and teachers weren’t watching. The menaces blended into the crowds, cunningly drawing away young girls from the comfort of what they understood and into a mysteriously dark fantasy they were to initially believe was heaven. When the spectrum of freedoms in society broadened, neither the youth nor many adults were aware that liberty let the sociopaths walk the shadows of a rather strange reality; and this time was certainly where realism meets romanticism with some ugly consequences.

In the sixties, two types of enlightenment happened: peace protests and the “baby boom.” It was a time of individualism and nativism in a time where American immigration skyrocketed the economy. A growing middle class moved into the suburbs, which separated towns from cities, splitting up countercultures, even those as malicious as the mafia. Not everyone conformed to the American Dream, however. For example, two major shocks sparked revolts such as the assassination of John F. Kennedy and Martin Luther King. Another detachment from conforming to American culture was the way music and media changed the stereotype of adolescence, which meddled with the average individual’s search for identity.

Things that were kept underground for a long time (such as politics, belief systems, wealth, sexuality, and rituals) became part of what was wanted as part of the individual’s identity. Much of these building countercultures were underground, and many underground problems went unnoticed. When problems go unnoticed, lunatics take this as an advantage to do as they please. This is what was the case for Connie’s situation in Oates’ story.

Young adults like Connie are faced with taking responsibilities of realities more maturely; she is threatened by Arnold that her family will get hurt if she does not follow him into his car. She grabs the phone but is intimidated and confused while Arnold watches her through the window of her house, taunting and mocking her fright. It sounds like her parents and sister will not be home soon, and with him waiting with only a glass door separating them, it’s an intimidating, indescribable situation of trauma. It is also ironic that the author dedicates this story to Bob Dylan, who is yet another parallel to Arnold Friend because of his “otherworldly” attitude that Connie is both fascinated with and afraid of.

Connie goes about town with her friends through the night. Her father seems uninvolved, and when her mother is involved, she is being compared to her sister. “Who do you think you are?” she would demand when Connie wants approval of her appearance. She seeks it into the faces of strangers. And what she desires, Arnold promises. Because of her relationship at home, Connie furthermore sees opportunity, and gives in because he uses her negative family bonds as his strength to draw her toward him. He is acting omniscient, like those admired icons of the 1960’s that Connie fantasizes about, like Bob Dylan. Plus, his sociopath personality is hidden under charm as he coaxes, “Come on Connie, my beautiful, blue-eyed girl….”

To escape reality, Connie fantasizes. Her reality seems to have a sour effect on her impulse. When this promise of her dreams is answered, she is pressured to make a choice between her life for her family’s, as Arnold’s threat. In conclusion, Connie represents the transformation of an individual from adolescence to adulthood. The desire to feel accepted and the pressures of Arnold’s taunts outweigh the cost of her safety. Her social relationships and her relationships at home are static and she can possible fix the issues in time, while her final decision of following Arnold is permanent and beyond her control.

Work Cited:

Jazzlizzle. “The 1960s Youth Movement.” Teen ink magazine. Published 2014. Web.

N/A. “Oates’ Where are you going, where have you been and Smooth Talk.” PDF. Web. Acessed March 14, 2015.

Bouson, Mara. “Pied Piper of Tuscon: Twisted killings of Charles Howard Schmidt Jr.” Special to the News. Dec 9, 2009.

What did I write? Revising an Old, Quirky Cyberpunk (?) Short Story

We live in two superficial worlds. A third, possibly, has caught up to speed with our evolution, the biological one. I can’t be sure about the other two worlds. The inner longing, need for self-esteem, and self-actualization are still in a desire of something invisible that drove us into chaos. If there was an identifiable numbers towthw wars that escalated and the lives that trickled down in ratio every other half a million, I’d probably give a guess but by then the earth would be a scorched piece of charcoal swarming in clouds of dust, much like it seems to be the dawning of in some parts of the world. Of course, if the the greed stopped, the smog might stop. A large portion of forced labor for low cost could be stopped. Needless waste like be maintained. Needless testing and slaughtering of animals and plants could be prevented. There is an invisible narcotic that has made us truly, collectively dull and mad. I would say confused, because maybe it is more proper but I’ll be honest with myself. My eyes are glazed and my circadian rhythms are off balance. I’m in trouble if I’m caught for being up. The police get paid for watching us cyberpunks sleep. Especially those like me, a troll who made no sense and felt that was a way to fit in, to draw attention like cohesion. Except my intents were possibly irrational, given to dangerous consequences. But that story sha continue. And it does. If you recall that some of the most brutal things done in history of man was done because he could create too, create civilization, and then destroy each other. Of course it’s more complex with more variables and not always the same content. I cannot be shaming. Archetypes are like the gods – misleading yet nonetheless something for someone lazy to label what they fear. What would I fear more than the unknown? To have something mailed to me from the dark web. To be called a fascist nazi rapist who evidently eats cardavors and paints their dogs nails. (I for one had cats, and can’t call me a cat lady if I’m a guy). Dogs scared the shit out of me. I’d rather view them online with screen in between. Sometimes zoos were okay for a while, but I didn’t want to go if they were being held there in misery. Unfortunately, that was the case on many zoos. And we were a zoo. But what happens when the chaos goes online? Well digital narcotics lure us into a fast trance, turning, eyes glazed and magnetic. Sparks of light refract my lens for a minute after peeling them away. Things seem dark at first until my eyes adjust. There are windows behind the screen as I shut my laptop. I lean over, open the indies, and crawl onto the unused balcony. I had a dream of this once, which came from a haunting drone footage. There was a vacant, bleak grey floors and bars of iron. An exaggeration to call it close to a prison cell, but nonetheless something may have been sort of true. So why is it a prison if none gets hurt or interrogated? Maybe it’s the minds that has been interrogated, raped by the mysteriousness fingers. I think of the word mani and think of a goddess of the same name with red braid – a warrior goddess. I will admit some of the archetypes were alluring. But it was an archetype. Of course it was obvious o was obsessed because I’d always try to cover the picture when ever seeing one of the goddess. I passed quickly by my Hindu class lectures on the hallway to avoid the name or similar implications. I was still manipulated by the neurology of these ideas and fears, clamping down on my drive to be free. 

Mocking freedom, possibly because it was an idea about something. What is freedom? Yahoo answers doesn’t know. Quota doesn’t know. Yoville doesn’t know. 4chan thinks they know. Then again, 4chan instigated approximately most of the propaganda and conspiracy theories floating around the web – which, by the way, was only proposed about in the 80s. Many are filtered on the one and only magnetic of web urls – google – and they are taking away the apps in a little bit, or so the warnings imply. And due to the unspeakable amount of destruction in a wasteland of digital garbage, I am not truly surprised. But is this in itself just a conspiracy theory? Google has been hard-work since early 1900s and is successful. You may say; well, do your research. Here’s my cognitive bias filling in, stubbornly and out of laziness. One of the things that I’ve sttracts were narcissists, and I wouldn’t be sulfide dog my superficiality was connected to it. Appearing to be smarter than I was became a vale that wouldn’t drill holes into my lungs. If people knew my online identity they may be horrified and sorely, malevolently disappointed. Even in the real superficial world where I maneuvered myself on the kegs of an ape-being, I created a Machiavellian persona. I learned how to trick people into respecting me. I find a place of domination. One girl, who earned about cougars on an island where my parents wanted to fish mocked me for wanting to be in the lobby because there was WiFi. I was just there because I did t want to be alone in a hotel room that smelled like chemicals. Pus we had a bauble who turned his radio up all the way. That and a guy nearly crushed me into a wall when pacing around like an paranoid vacuum cleaner. So how do you make someone respect you? Make them confused or make want to correct you nicely. I asked if the fish I fought was poisonous. And then she was shocked but understanding. I burned a hole in her when daring her to question my thirst for WiFi. I asked once if it was possible to drop food into North Korea. I know it’s dangerous in many ways. Everybody’s so paranoid and micromanaging. I can’t wait until we’re all dead. 

I know the police were close to it themselves. They wanted me down by 10;30 and it was 10:22. I’m not sure if I was hungry but my throat hurt. Lazily I wanted coffee or coke, but electrolytes and orange juice were probably the more important ingredients of health. So was sunlight. When I return I’ve been kicked off three forums and blocked by administrators of games.” For cussing and blurting nonsense while escaping via rooms. When you keep switching Roma it’s hard to. He pinned down 

Novel Background & Context

What are your thoughts? Questions?

Main Characters 

  • Michelle 
  • Trevor
  • Ayira
  • Connor
  • Shahed (Potentially, i’ll have to find another name)
  • Eric

Minor Characters (notes):

  • Hannah (friends with Michelle from the garden club that their moms are part of)
  • Kristina (shopaholic, environmentalist, friend of Michelle’s and Trevor’s sister)
  • Olivia (her parents are recovering from addiction)
  • Marcus (has a crush on Michelle and flies drones around Newport)
  • Mitch (friend of Connor’s, pretending to like Trevor)
  • Madison (Trevor and Connor both like her)
  • Anneke (Madison’s friend)

It’s kind of cute, kind of quirky, and everything in between, but honestly, what young adult novel isn’t like that? 

Michelle, Ayira, and Trevor went to the same school, live within three blocks from each other, and work together at Empire Tea and Coffee. The story is Based in Newport, Rhode Island because of the diversity of religion (despite the main characters being agnostic), beaches, ice cream (Awful Awfuls), ghost stories, the Cliff Walk, etc.

Michelle was convinced she and Ayira liked each other more than just being friends. Ayira used to date Trevor before he got hung up with two false accusations.

The first was something related to a secret Ayira wouldn’t tell anyone.

The other, was related to Michelle’s brother, Eric, who was in Trevor’s class. He was ‘incredibly smart,’ and turned against former friends who started to lose interest in him. Eric and Trevor started to open up to each other which lead to jealousy and false narrative about Trevor. These lies were started by Connor.

Michelle wanted to avoid her past but found that she and her friends and family members hid their own secret regrets and grief as well. Why else would she only meet her grandfather when he was dying? Her mom then randomly took her on a trip to Europe to avoid her grandfather.

While on a train to the largest nativity scene in Europe, Michelle broke down when a repressed memory comes to the surface.

Not that she didn’t get in trouble back at school – she did, along with her attacker, Trevor, and Marcus. (Civilians aren’t supposed to have drones).

Connor and Shahed created a false accusation about Trevor – assault. This was ironic, since he knew Ayira had a secret between her brother, Shahed and his fiancé. Shahed’s and Connor’s lies would come to light when the stalking from the ‘internet hacker’, Marcus, lead to the exposure of more secrets and potential threats. 

Controversial topics not related to the above:

  1. Mention of drones
  2. Mentions addiction
  3. Diary of a potentially suicidal-homicidal individual (because of religion more so than depression, meaning: they believe that death is better than life, which is depressing for people not in the religion)
  4. Some of my characters believe and act out dangerous ideas.
  5. Mentions assault (there is an incident of assault, though most of the story focuses on an assault that did not happen)
  6. Certain days are shared with an historical event that happens, such as Trevor’s birthday being on the day of Mt. Vesuvius eruption. This doesn’t happen often, but every once in a while (Halloween is associated with the death of Rasputin, for example, which is relevant to the chapter of a halloween party).
  7. There is one chapter which is based in another country, but ironically is the climactic part where Michelle has a surfacing memory and tells her tourist friends. (Theme of releasing grief by escaping the familiar comfort).
    • The ‘spiller’ is being stalked and mugged, which similar to what happens when she returns to school with Connor